The One Who Is Forgotten By All

Friday, October 12, 2007

Phew been awhile since i updated my blog here hehe , been jobless for ard 2-3 mths now , tats nt the main prob i guess. Now the main prob is , recently l've contacted back char bo..... at first i tot i have covered my feelings for her already , (coz during that time when she was with zhihao izt inpropriate for me to jus bash in , even though i had a hunch that she knew i had feelings for her) but now she's single again , and she's still e same old char bo i knew back den (at least for her temper) but thats not the only thing i found out =\ i found out that i still like her , izt not a crush... i really like her , (not l'm not despo jus becoz i;ve been single for the past 8-9 yrs =\) everytime when i don see her(since we contacted back) i will start to feel uneasy and stuffs etc , but when i'm on the fone/or in person , i lost speech/words *sign* should i tell her how i feel towards her?? Wad if she said she's not rdy for another relationship... or mayb she will reply me she already has found her special "someone"???? Manz wad shld i do..... she's beside me now... l'm really at a loss of wad to do , l've ince told myself not to be like this again since the sarah incident has passed , but.. l'm really scared , scared of her reactio if i told her my true feelings , how i feel towards her...... l'm really tired , tired of faking to be jus a normal close fren , tired of hidding all my emotions towards her.... damm i feel like crying now...

Jason [ゼイサン] Zeisan was alone Friday, October 12, 2007

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